When Admiration Hurts

You hear that someone else has been chosen for the opportunity you wanted.
A part of you thinks you could have done it better.
Another part of you hopes they do well.
You congratulate them, and you mean it.
Later, you imagine your own name being announced.
You notice the envy, the goodwill, and the disappointment occupying the same space.
Your chest feels full of feelings that do not agree.